I fell into a nightmare when I read those words:
"Your application has been canceled."
One of those literally jaw dropping moments, that haunt you whenever you think about it. I had to sum up a shit load of effort just to keep myself settled.
It makes me sick to think about it.
Self-deserved pain is the worst pain to have.
It's when optimism cannot possibly come into play--when you know its 100% your fault--that you DESERVE to feel like shit.
And it was a new horror indeed.
Filled with dread, I walked up to father and told him the grave news.
"It's no big deal." he said
"..what?"
"It's like postponing a trip to Disneyland. We won't go this month--but we will go the next."
"...true."
"But you still should have been on top of it."
"I know."
Warn me if you ever go back in time. >.>
"It's when optimism cannot possibly come into play--when you know its 100% your fault--that you DESERVE to feel like shit."
ReplyDeleteYou couldn't have explained it better.
That's how I felt when I was grounded :/