Maybe these feelings aren't as strong as I had previously thought. Maybe my body draws these illusions for lack of experience--for lack of perspective. That's all I think I'll ever need to get by this life unscathed and untorn from the pits it hurls at me. I find that I am only afraid and uncertain of that which is unfamiliar--but once the darkness has been illuminated I cannot help but laugh from my previous states of minds. Perspective is literally everything. It's the difference between me from 5 years ago and the me 5 years from now. This is an awesome discovery. I'll tell you one thing--once I get out of this place I will finally understand these current states of oddities. I'll laugh and take it in stride--feeling the great irony that even then I will be stuck in a perspective waiting to be released and realized in itself.
Perhaps that is what life is. A series of perspectives that free one another as the years go by. Perhaps that is why time is such a great healer--it provides for inevitable growth and new states of minds. New mentalities.
Before I get redundant, I'll end this cheery note with this:
When the time comes...I will know that everything I have ever went through--no matter how horrible, anxious, or dreadful it might have seemed at first--
--it was all worth it. It is all necessary.
Completely.
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